First off, sorry I haven’t written in awhile! I ended up coming down with the flu, which has apparently turned into bronchitis, so I’ve been feeling really run down and physically rotten over the last little while. That said, emotionally I’m in a much better place than I was in the last time I wrote. Things are still hard, but I’m pushing ahead and working on a ton of stuff to help make myself and my life better, so even though things are still tough I’m feeling much more hopeful than I was. Thank you to all of you who have written me such sweet, kind messages, I didn’t actually get to read them until today, but they really made my day and made me feel so much better. ♥
I’ve been thinking a lot over the last month or two about the future of this blog – or rather, the next blog, since I’ve been talking about changing and moving my blog for awhile now and I still fully intend to do that. One thing I keep getting hung up on is the direction I want to take this into in the future, and realizing that blogging these days tends to be very much about fitting into a niche, and putting ourselves into quite restrictive boxes and identities, if you will, and this thought has been puzzling and troubling me for awhile, for a number of reasons.
Like most, if not all of us, throughout my life I’ve had many people try to fit me into boxes and say “you are this”, as if whatever “this” is is all that I am, and struggling against that, because I don’t fit neatly into any one box – none of us do – and this has been one of the things that has troubled me a lot in life. I’m sick of boxes, the ones others tried to fit me into, the ones I tried to put myself into just to find a place where I could exist in this world, all of it, I’m tired of it. I know that in the blogging world fitting into a niche or box doesn’t have the same potentially devastating real life effects, but at the same time, I’m just tired of trying to be one thing, stick to one thing, when there is so much more to me. Do I want to keep writing about sewing and fashion? Of course, because those are things that I enjoy writing about, but I’d also love to write more about things like films, books and music (vintage or otherwise), history, society, humour…as well as writing more about the issues that are important to me and try to help uplift and empower others and give them a space where they can speak about these things too and feel like they are being heard.
Maybe I just have too many interests and passions to fit into one blog, or maybe I’m taking this whole thing way too seriously, but it has been a bit of a concern of mine going forward, perhaps a ridiculous concern, but a real concern nevertheless, worrying if anyone would want to read it, or if it would come across as too scattered and unfocused. This is something that has been bleeding through into this blog over the last year in particular as I’ve been writing or commenting on more serious subject matter (such as politics, suicide, abuse, etc), and while it hasn’t exactly driven anyone away I’ve sort of worried over time that people might get annoyed that the focus has been unintentionally shifting into different directions than just strictly sewing and the cool vintage stuff I love and started this blog to write about in the first place.
I know I’ll still want to interview people once I’ve moved to the next blog, because I really love and enjoy it and have gotten to learn so much from so many incredibly interesting and talented women. I know I’m still going to want to write about sewing and vintage fashion, etc, but I just want to be able to write about other things that I’m passionate about as well without feeling like it’s jarring, I want those different topics to just feel more like an organic part of what I’m doing. Because sewing and my love of fun vintage stuff isn’t all that I am (just like it isn’t all that any of you are), I’m also a writer, a musician, and so many other things that just can’t possibly fit into one small box or blog.
Will opening things up more and writing about different topics make my blog “unmarketable”? Maybe. At the end of the day, do I really care? Not particularly, because what matters more is the friendships I’ve made here in the last year and a half or so, and the hope that those will carry over into whatever I do next, because the most amazing part of running this blog, the thing I’ve always been so grateful for, is the connections I’ve formed with all of you. As I’ve said before, you’ve all helped me in ways that I can never truly express or thank you for, and the most important thing to come out of this whole blogging experience has been all of you who keep coming back, keep reading, keep commenting and sharing yourselves and your lives and your love and strength with me. I hope I’ve been able to give you something positive back in return during all of this, as I’ve muddled through learning how all of this blogging stuff works in this day and age – even if it was just laughing at some of my dumb jokes or my appalling stitching!
Like I said, maybe I’m thinking about all of this way too deeply, and my worries or concerns are completely unfounded. I guess at the end of the day, I’m just still trying to figure all of this out and decide where to go from here. I hope that whatever I do, or wherever I go, I’ll see you there.