Inside My Vintage Wedding Dress/Thoughts on Love and Progress

On October 24th, 2009 my husband and I were married. Our wedding was very small – so small in fact that it took place in the living room of my family’s house! – but it was full of love and we were surrounded by close friends and family. My sisters and a close friend were my bridesmaids and my older sister was my maid of honor and “gave me away” along with my father.

On that day I wore a vintage 1950’s sun dress that I bought from Pinup Girl Clothing as my wedding dress and even though I can no longer wear it, it is my most treasured item of clothing.

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This dress is a beautiful pale yellow, with detailing in a mix of white lace and white rick rack.

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The skirt is really full and adorable, I love it!

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Here you can see the matching yellow metal zipper (which reminds me, I need to find some metal zippers for my own sewing projects, I loathe the modern zippers!), it also has a hook and eye, which I had trouble photographing. Oops!

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Here is more of a close up photo of the lace and rick rack.

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This is a photo of one of the seams inside, which was finished with pinking shears.

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The hem of the dress is hand stitched, which I absolutely love.

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This is the inside of the dress bodice.

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The inside of the skirt.

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Here you can see the cute little yellow bows on the bodice, with more lace and rick rack.

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Here is one of the shoulder straps, with even more lace and rick rack!

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The dress was made by Lou-Ette California, which I have been unable to find information on, unfortunately. I would love to know more about this designer/brand if anyone has any information or insight!

I absolutely love this dress, even though I know that, realistically, it will never – and should – never fit me again. It’s seriously tiny – I believe the waist is 18-19″ – and I would have trouble believing it ever fit me, if I didn’t have the photographs from my wedding day to remind me that yeah, once upon a time it did. But I’m working hard on being okay with that.

I’ve gained so much more than just weight in the little over eight years since I wore this dress. And the things that I’ve gained along with the weight probably would not have been possible if I had stayed so small, because the tiny weight I was at when I wore this dress was not only unsustainable, but incredibly unhealthy and medically dangerous. I have so much more now. I am so much more now, because along with the weight one of the most important things I gained was myself. I am a more complete person than I was then. I’m a much happier person, and even my most dark and depressing days now are much easier to get through and manage than any “good” day was back then. Because now I know that the bad times will pass if I just hold on long enough. Even if a bout of depression or anxiety lasts weeks or months, I know that it will pass and I will get through it. I didn’t think that was possible back then.

This dress doesn’t make me sad, it makes me proud of how far I’ve come.

The journey from where I was at (emotionally and physically) when I fit in this dress, to where I am now, actually started on my wedding day. I couldn’t have made it from there to here without my husband, who has been so much more to me than just a spouse. He’s my best friend, my rock, my champion, my confidant, and the other half that makes me whole. I don’t think I could have made it this far if he hadn’t been there right from the start loving me and believing in me when I was unable to love or believe in myself. He means the world to me and has stuck by me through so many incredibly dark times in the (just over) ten years since we’ve been together. I think I could get through just about anything as long as I have him by my side.

I love him and I’m so proud of us. ❤

 

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6 thoughts on “Inside My Vintage Wedding Dress/Thoughts on Love and Progress

  1. This is such a wonderful post! It’s fantastic that you have a beautiful dress to remind you of a perfect wedding day, as well as serving as a reminder of the amazing progress that you’ve made since then. You should be incredibly proud of yourself. I’m so happy for how far you’ve come!

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